tides of change

It's a new year, and so time for a new face for my blog. I'm not sure how long this new template will stay, but I was in need of a change. As for change in my life, we'll see. I've always found the idea of a "New Year Resolution" interesting, probably because I've rarely made specific resolutions on New Year's. What is the pull of January 1 that pushes people to reevaluate their life? Perhaps the long standing tradition has become ingrained in our genetic profiles. Ha!

Typically the new year has been an opportunity for me to reflect and evaluate my life. A new outlook that I am working on and will continue to work on in two thousand and six is to focus only on those things in my life that I can control and let go of the things that I can't. I can be a better daughter, sister, co-worker, friend, individual. I can be more patient, more giving, kinder. I can't make my life perfect and I can't control the actions of others. People will inevitably let me down, I will let myself down. I will likely spend a few more Friday nights alone, reading a book, browsing the internet or watching a movie rather than being on a wildly romantic date. And yet, I feel oddly fulfilled. Sure there are moments of loneliness and insecurities, but I suspect every person, whether they are married, single, childless, or child-a-plenty, have times when they feel alone in the world and wonder why anyone might love them. It is a beautiful thing when you begin to appreciate and love yourself. This is a work in progress, one that has begun through both the tragic and comic life experiences and those precious people that have been placed in my life. And it feels good...

If I were to make one resolution this year it will be that I won't wait till December 31, 2006 to make new goals in my life. I hope to continue my long standing tradition of making goals throughout each year. And like years past, I will likely succeed in some and fail in others. I hope 2006 will be good to those I love and those I don't.

Happy New Year